I had my very first tutorials of the week.

Lessons are very much conducted vocally, and questions raised are really out of the norm. Intellectually challenging. And..I really don't have the confidence to speak up. Maybe because I very much know that I'm such an ugly freak now. And I still go back to the belief that the first impression counts on one's looks, and that's reality.

Well,anyway,back to talking about Sociology tutorials:

I kinda like the lessons although I must frankly admit, that classes are extremely stressful because you'd have to be fast in thinking and very outspoken. They kinda expect you to do presentations at any point of time and probably, expect you to do it well. Probably, I'm not a speaker. Thinking of that is demoralizing...so I must stay really strong to pull through uni life.

One day if I stop talking about my passion and interests for Sociology, it maybe of the following reasons:

1)I can't be critical enough and also, fast enough in thinking to be able to present my ideas well at the moment the question is raised.

2) Tutors are themselves demoralizing. I know right at the start of my academic life that I just cannot deal with teachers that do not choose their words wisely and maybe, unintentionally hurt some others without even knowing. I always feel that teachers should be sensitive.

3) I just am not pretty enough.

And these are reality. - so why make the reality as what everyone would think of - hateful and cruel.